Who Am I

I'm

Alice

An ordinary lady who is a full-time working mum.

I am a precocious child. I started almost everything at very young age. I started care of myself independently when I was in P1. I get myself ready for school everyday because parents are working and siblings are in morning school.

While my peers are still doing their A Level and Pre-U, I have already started working, at the age of 18. And while the others are pursuing their degree, I got married, and got my first baby a year later, at 24 and 26 respectively.

It's not that I don't like school. I love school, but our situation back then doesn't allow me to study further. So I went for part-time night school and obtained my double Diplomas. Did not pursue further [although I wanted to don that square hat badly] because I couldn't afford the school fees back then. Almost half [or more] of my earning goes to my family because I was so-called the sole bread winner after my father left.

I got my Certificate of Employment Intermediary (CEI) last year and I can now be a licensed employment consultant, or head hunter if I am given a chance. Nobody wants to hire a consultant with zero experience huh?

I have a hyperactive pigeon pair, but they are not twins.

My first-born was a gift and the second-born was a surprise from God. There start my never-ending motherhood, parenting, and in-laws feud. My MIL is the main care-giver of my kids when I'm out, work. And we often has a lot of disputes. I know old-folks have their own parenting style and I have mine, too. We have a lot of disagreements and she usually oppose mine and vice versa. And it goes on until now.

My boy is now 6. I couldn't believe that he is going to P1 in another 6 months time! While my girl is still in the terrible two stage although she is now 4. We just celebrated her big 4 last month! The mommy girl loves to express her love thru singing. And her signature songs for mommy are "Mommy Mommy I love you" or "I love you in the mommy" when she was 3. [adapted and recomposed from a nursery rhyme named "Skidamarink". The lyric goes "I love you in the morning, and in the afternoon..." *haha*]. Guess what? Her terrible 4 is worse than the 3,2,1..I swear!

I was inspired by all the wonderful mommy bloggers out there, and envious because most of them are SAHM. I have been guilty because I couldn't spend my time watching the kids grow and capture their every single milestone. I am so desperate to get a sponsored post.. And those goodies and media passes/ free tickets for the kids! Oh my so tempting! Who doesn't like free stuff right?

But later on I figured out, this wasn't my intention. Parenting has been tough and it is still tough. I have a lot more to learn and explore [useful] parenting tips. I got really really mad at myself for not being a good mom. I don't want to raise a spoiled-brat, nor a genius, I only want them to be good, healthy, study well and most importantly - happy go lucky. I want to educate them to be a better person who respect others, responsible and be grateful. I failed to provide them with the best, but I am giving them the best I could afford. When they say "Paw Patrol", I would get them the PAW Patrol Live show tickets. Not the Cat 1 front row but not the cheapest Cat 4 with restricted view, either. The best I could afford, I say.

So literally the social medias are my one and only platform to meet, interact and exchanging views with mommas out there, who hears me!

P/S: Full-time working moms out there, how do you juggle between work, family and parenting? Superwoman aren't you?!